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Is my future employment in jeopardy? Who knows these days, with a crazy clerical conservative as the new Minister of Education.
Just heard the Russian presidential candidate I support endorse Hillary without buts. Yet he is from a social liberal party. Has he ever heard of Bernie?
I've come to conclusion Changes In The Night doesn't need a sequel. Months ago I had planned to expand it into several chapters about the new life of the protagonist, but figured the "happy end" has already occurred, and I don't like writing about enjoyable lives when I'm in a bad mood — meaning, this story would be in production for years and probably end up being unrealistic. I'll better focus on something new.
One simply cannot tell when inspiration will hit me. But it's still likely to come at night, preferably when I'm already in bed.
All my activity on the Internet is going to be recorded and stored. Moreover, I'm going to pay for that as well.
meduza.io/en/feature/2016/06/2…
I can no longer afford to stay in this country.
WARNING: In this entry, I will be referring to hypothetical authors of the show and some other people quite a lot. Do not take it on your account, dear reader.

Just watched a Ukrainian TV program about a 19-year-old trans girl. Goodness, I will never ever be so brave as to participate in that shit carnival. I'm just too closed as a person. It's worse than political shows on Russian TV. Having every bit of your private life discussed, with camera every now and then flipping to "shocked" and "concerned" audience, questions like "do you have sexual life?" and overall tone of the discussion being "whose fault her gender identity is". (I translated that phrase from transphobic language) Do you know why people are trans, according to their psychologist? Because they don't get fairy tales told to them in childhood. They give such simple answers to a topic still subject to research! Even more so, they suggest it like, "What can you do to avoid that?" Their advice was terrible. If I was "taught to behave like a boy"... wait, you thought I wasn't? Even not-so-violent methods my father used to insert me into the world of guys all failed! He signed me up for martial arts - once I tried hitting my nose so it would bleed and I wouldn't have to go there. But then my crossdressing sessions were never ever noticed until I told my mom this year - and she thought I'd made that up. I've made friends with some guys, they share some of my interests, but I'm not sure if they'll even accept me for who I am. The majority of my classmates I still can't sincerely get along with.

I hated just watching that. Was I there in the studio, I would've torn half of them apart. I hope they pre-recorded the audience, because some people grinned, some were obviously disgusted... Then only one person, the video editor, is to blame. Her grandma (who brought her up) just refused to accept her in the beginning! I could stop watching at that point. I don't need your approval! If you don't like me, I won't bother you with that again, just leave me alone! The last thing I want is anyone's judgment!

Shame on me for that, actually. I'm not too confident about myself, and that makes me think I'm not transsexual at all. Am I? Then who am I? Thought the question was answered a while ago. Thus another cycle of doubt begins.

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Catherine
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Russia
Age: 16
Nationality: Russian, potentially Russian American
Political views: social liberal, anti-sexist, anti-clericalist, antimilitarist
Religious views: agnostic leaning towards atheism


2016 US Presidential Election: Bernie Sanders #feelthebern #nevertrump

I am a pre-op trans girl who loves writing fiction and discussing politics.
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:icondarkhunter1357:
DarkHunter1357 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav :)
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ClausFuel Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2016
Thanks for the watch uwu
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ShyFoxSV Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
My pleasure!
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Bronislaw-Ruban14-88 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2016
Интереснейший факт: Мужчины намного умнее женщин. 

Это связано с тем что у женщин размер мозга внушительнее меньше от Мужчин.
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ShyFoxSV Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Интереснейший факт: :iconbronislaw-ruban14-88: не знает биологию. Умственные способности никак не связаны с размером мозга.
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Bronislaw-Ruban14-88 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2016
Вот это не как не оспорить!

Женщина всегда принадлежит Мужчине, а не наоборот.
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ShyFoxSV Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Так вот.
В сексистской системе патриархата — очень часто.
Проблема (для вас) в том, что мир изменился, и в развитых пост-индустриальных обществах с сексизмом борются.
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ShyFoxSV Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Я уже знаю, что нацики не против побыть рабовладельцами.
Только вот ваше прошлое поколение уже примерило на себя и роль рабов на сибирских рудниках и московских стройках. Может, с этого начнёте?
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kuzumonostory Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Thanks for the watch and the faves!! :D :D
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